11 Feb
2001
11 Feb
'01
9:10 p.m.
That "Probably" sounded pretty definite to me :). Anyway, you don't *enjoy* embarrassment, do you, even probably?
Um, yes, sometimes. After I make a dirty joke, I blush bright red, hide my face in my hands, but I'm also a little proud I had the guts to say it. When someone gives me praise I don't deserve I feel awkward and want to slink off, but I'm also aware I'm supposed to like being praised so I teeter between wanting to vanish and being kind of happy they think I'm great. Even when I'm *not* enjoying myself a bit, I react to embarrassment usually by grinning, which confuses the people around me about my emotions.