I watched B7 when it was first shown in 1978. I was a fairly unworldly and
naive 21-year old and the subtexts passed me by. I've been on this list and
Freedom City for about two years so I've now had the possibilities brought
to my attention. Until it was pointed out to me the idea of any sort of
sexual attraction between Blake and Avon never crossed my mind - although I
felt that there was certainly a tension between them - but I would hestitate
to say that it wasn't there.
Although at that time (1978) i knew of the existemce of homosexuality I
didn't think I knew anyone who was homosexual, after all the men I knew - my
father, my brothers, my husband, the boyfriends and husbands of all my
female friends - definitely weren't. You could tell the men who were
homosexual by the outrageously camp and "limpwristed" way they behaved, but
they were never "ordinary" people, only film or television stars or artists
or ballet dancers. Of course I've lived and learnt since then but early
cultural conditioning goes deep, so while I'm not homophobic it's still not
the norm for me. I don't use the word "norm" as a value judgement, it's
merely that I would assume a man (any man/Everyman) to be straight rather
than gay unless I had obvious (to me) evidence to the contrary.
[Aside: In the same way I have sexist and racist views. I'm not racist or
sexist (I'm a woolly-liberal, feminist, socialist, vegetarian
Guardian-reader, I can't be <g>) but I'm a white middle class, middle-aged,
mother living in a cosy, affluent bit of south-east England so the "norm"
for me is other white, middle-class, middle-aged mothers and fathers. I
think I have an open mind and I'm aware of the rest of the world around me
but it's only through the media (see above) and other sources that I know
about societies and countries other than my own. This list is helping me
broaden my views, for which I'm grateful, but I'm obviously not in quite the
same mindset as many others members. I've just de-lurked on Freedom City as
well as here and it's been mentioned that the lurkers may well be the
majority so it's possible that the opinions and ideas of the regular posters
aren't the "norm".]
Anyway, the recent slash discussions have, at times, resembled the 19th
century debates on the number of angels that could dance on a pinhead:
they've produced some very interesting posts, some less-than-interesting
posts, some mildly expressed posts, some very heated posts etc etc but the
overall effect (on me) is becoming Does it really matter? I shall continue
to read slash fiction and enjoy and agree with some stories and dismiss and
disagree with others.
Kerry